Thursday, February 2, 2012

What the Future Holds, Who Knows?

I was sitting in my Exercise and Energy Homeostasis lecture this morning when the academic advisor of the kinesiology department, Laura, walked into our classroom. She was going over the logistics of graduation which, believe it or not, is taking place in approximately 3 months. And then it hit me - I am graduating soon.

Somehow, graduation seems daunting and terrifying to me. I don't particularly like goodbyes. In my mind, graduation is like the finale - the last curtain call where all of the lights are on you and everyone in the audience is applauding. You say your last goodbye and then slowly, the curtains fall into place, the stagelights darken, and the room becomes silent, empty. The end.

I never really thought of this graduation as the end of my time at USC. I mean, it's not guaranteed but it is a definite possibility now. One week ago, I was certain that I was going to be part of the USC Ostrow School of Dentistry Class of 2016. I was going to be back on this campus next August, donning the white coat and attending all of the home football games. But after a call from University of the Pacific and an email from ASDOH, my future is quite uncertain. I don't know where I will be when the new school year starts? Will I still be at USC? Will I be in San Francisco? Or maybe in Mesa, Arizona? It terrifies me knowing that these three months may be my last in Los Angeles.

Just keep moving forward. Everything will be alright, I tell myself.

The future, here I come.

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